Hugs Help

Just when you start to doubt yourself the smallest things can recharge you!  Leighton Rose I do not know what I did to deserve you, but your kind heart makes me so proud to be your Mommy.  With so much change going on lately I am truly in awe at how my kids are the ones that keep me going.  Tonight as I was on my hands and knees searching for an earring I dropped I heard myself start to get agitated.  My frustration wasn’t just because of the earring it is probably a build up of stress and feeling helpless to so many things that are truly out of my control.  Leighton popped into the room and said “Mommy don’t you worry I will help you find that in the morning.  Right now you need a hug to make it better!”  She was so right.  Crazy how a 4 year olds hug can put things into perspective.

  I may not be enough for everyone else, but to her I am more than enough!!!! 

 Made me ask myself...

Why do I constantly fight for approval from others when the little ones right in front of me approve of me just the way I am!!!!

There You Are

Dance, Dance, Dance

This girl here is something else!  All day everyday she will dance if you let her.  She tells me she practices so she can be better and better and one day do her own stuff in the big stage lol.  Leighton has only had one Dance Revue in the books and this chick is ready for a solo.  She was crying this weekend because no one let her pick what “sassy moves” she wanted to do on stage.  Ummmmmmm she has a hard lesson coming if she thinks a solo is any time soon lol.  I honestly am super impressed with her freestyle dancing and the way she dances with the music.  She has no desire to be in any other activities which I will make her try, but right now she fights me word for word every time stressing “I JUST WANT TO DANCE!” Lol!!!!!!  And to top it all off she informed me today with some pretty funny info!

Me:  Leighton when do you practice all these amazing dances you show me every night?

Leighton:  Mom I already told you.

Me:  Oh I must of forgot already.  Tell me again.

Leighton:  I told you I lay under the tree or on the concrete ( or concreek as she calls it ) at 3rd recess.

Me:  Um yes you did but that is not practicing if you are laying down lol???

Leighton:  Yes it is!  I lay down in the shade and think dance, dance, dance inside my cute little head cause it is just toooooo hot to play!

Ohhhhhhhhhh wow ok so how do I hide the tears when I’m dying laughing so hard I can barely breathe.  She has been telling me how hot the last recess is but if she is practicing dancing without even moving....  I can’t even handle it y’all I’m dying laughing again just thinking of her telling me this!!!!  But I will say she may be on to something because she is pretty darn good for mind practicing!!!!

How Is Potty Training Going You Ask????

Literally this picture sums it up beautifully!  I was beyond proud of my recent Paw Patrol Potty Seat purchase this week and could not wait to give it to Jean Paul.  Yes selfishly I was more excited because I thought it would work to my benefit in this potty training war he and I are in lately.  This kid will actually walk into the bathroom and flush the toilet and look at me with his hands up and say “Oh nope, no candy today Jean Paul!”  Which in toddler terms means you lose Mom cause I would rather not even try and forfeit the candy you sonsaybwill give me if I sit on that thing.  So I guess I got what deserved when this was his reaction to his new seat!!!!!  Yep it even included a happy dance in circles all the while it was around his neck.  He thought he was so cute spinning and laughing with his seat on like a Mardi Gras bead!  Well he wasn’t laughing when we had to get that thing off!!!!  I wanted to cry with him cause his ears just would not let him remove it poor thing.  So now I can guarantee he will be scared to even sit on it lol.  So we will have to see what happens next!!!!!

They Are

Grief can make you question so many things.  It can literally consume your thoughts with what if’s and why me’s.  I will be the first to admit the nighttime scares me... it is my worst enemy.  For some reason I struggle with the quietness and allow my mind to out-speak my faith sometimes.

  NOT TONIGHT GRIEF!!!

Seeing these faces as I lay awake in tears stops me in my tracks.

They are my what if’s and why me’s!!!

They are the reason I made it through another day even when I felt like I was defeated;

and they are how I will survive tomorrow!!!!!

Sometimes You Just Have To Look Up

You have to be willing

 to endure the storm 

to enjoy and appreciate the 

RAINBOW 

that follows!

Oh what a beautiful rainbow you sent us today Braxton!!

Let’s Try This Again

Well for June’s Dancer today was the first day of dancing!  But for us over achieving Bergeron’s it was the second day lol!!!!  Yes today Leighton finally got to actually enter the dance studio due to the fact that it was unlocked this time.  She of course was super excited the whole way there and even walking in, but then she got a little timid and didn’t want Maw Maw to leave.  Within no time she had Maw Maw convinced to stay in the lobby with Mrs June and wait lol!!!!  Of course she ended up having a blast and is ready to conquer dance year #2!  But she did have to remind me of the big mistake I made last week when I thought dancing started; because when I called to see if they were on their way she said “ Yep Mommy we are here and this time they have other cars not just Maw Maw’s!”  I wonder how many years she is going to hold this one against me lol!