Now I Will Get Nothing Done

I always have big plans of accomplishing so much after work lol.  Then this happens and I’m done!  I’m a sucker for snuggles that’s a fact!

Big Girl School Here We Come

Well it is official our Leighton Rose will be a Sts Peter & Paul Knight this August!  We are so excited, proud and honored to be accepted into the Catholic School that belongs to our Parish.  I can not lie the whole application process was quite nerve racking to say the least.  My family has dreamed of our little ones walking these halls for many years.  Six years ago we decided that Sts Peter & Paul School should be our way of honoring our Braxton Michael's memory.  We have poured our hearts into trying to help others receive a Catholic Education through our fundraiser, while at the same time spreading Braxton's story of Faith, Hope & Love.  And even though we have been a part of the School's Family through our fundraiser we now are officially a part of the student body as well.  Never did we expect to have a free pass or automatic in we applied like everyone else and sat and waited by the phone to see what God's plan for us was.  I do strongly believe in my heart that Braxton watches over the halls of that school, the school we so disparately had hoped he would attend one day.  Even though he is not here to do so I know he finds a way to bless each student that is there day in and day out.  I can't keep from smiling when I picture Leighton being one of those kids soon. 

Once we got the call that we were invited to become a part of the student body I immediatly broke down in tears.  I think I caught the Director of Operations off guard as I found it hard to form words on my end of the phone.  Through the tears I thanked her and simple said "This is something we have dreamed of for years."  Once she learned of my emotions on the other end of the phone I heard her say she was about to cry too.  After we hung up I completely lost it.  Not only had the anxiety of waiting to see if we were accepted taken over, but the realness of not being able to experience this with Braxton sunk in too.  I never want Leighton to feel she is walking in Braxton's what if cloud, but knowing that we should of already had this experience but didn't get to hurts more than I can explain.  Sometimes I can roll right through these big first time experiences; but not this time, this time it rolled right over me.  This was the first time we had ever had to make a big choice for our child's future but it should of been our second time and that made me ache more than I thought it ever could.  The rest of the day I was a complete mess of emotions.  As I tried to remember Braxton did have many firsts just in a different way I began to feel his love wrapping me up as if to hug me tight and it wasn't until then that I not only felt in my heart that God has had a bigger plan than I have ever imagined, I also could see it.  He has led us to this point and somehow he found a way to include Braxton every step of the way.  For years we have proudly supported Sts Peter & Paul School all out of love and truly wanting to honor our son while also helping others.  Some years were harder than others, in fact some years I even questioned if we should continue on with our fundraiser.  And then some years I even wondered if the amount of money we were donating was enough to actually help.  But with the love and support of our family and friends I always found the energy and courage to keep it going.  I honestly could not of done it without them either.  I also was reminded time and time again that it isn't always the donation amount that means the most; because every dollar counts, but there is so much more behind the money.  Through our Braxton Bergeron Scholarship Fund we have helped multiple families continue on with their children's Catholic Education while gaining so much more in the process.  Personally my family has connected with many people with huge hearts that want to help just from hearing our story once.  Then we have the parishioners at our church that know us by name now when they see us passing out flyers before and after mass each year.  It does something to my heart each time I hear:

"Oh it's Braxton time again!"

"Precious boy is still helping others!"

and

"We still pray for your family!"

How can you not be moved hearing your son has touched others with just his 7 hours of life.  And they remember him too and that is exactly what I promised my son.... That he would not be forgotten!  Our connection with the school has also created a closeness with our family and friends that is unimaginable.  And mostly I love that the younger children in our group of supporters are learning how important it is to give even though you are not receiving something in return.  Just knowing you are helping is a great gift and that is what I love being able to show to my kids first hand.  So as we watch Leighton start this next chapter in her journey we will continue to teach her how lucky she is and how special she is to us.  I am excited to watch her grow and see her learn new things and make new friendships.  But no matter what I pray she always knows she is blessed to have her own guardian angel watching over her, because I know (not think but know) he is with her every step of the way!  So congratulations Leighton Rose big girl school awaits you and all you have to offer it and all you have to learn from it.  

Mommy & Daddy can't wait to see what you will accomplish as you begin 

your own journey at Sts Peter & Paul Catholic School!!!!

Is There Any Other Way

Well when you have unexpected time with your Ney Ney and Poorain your weekend plans get completely changed lol.  We will do anything for extra time with our Texas peeps!!  The kids were beyond excited when our Sunday turned into a family day!  It is something that makes my heart triple in size.... sewing your kids and the pure love they have for Ney Ney & Poorain.  It totally proves that love knows no distance!  No need for fancy clothes or big plans, just being together is what they want!  So pajamas, rubber boots and a little outside time with all of us together and you would of sworn we spent a million bucks planning an expensive getaway.  And when Maw Maw threw in a king cake I had to wonder.... is there any other way to spend a Sunday after a perfect weekend?

One Month Countdown

For years..... and I mean years it has always been us 5!  In exactly one month we will become 6 and couldn’t be more excited!  So we had one last toast with the originals this evening as we let Robert know how much we love him and support him as he takes this next step in life!  Tonight we are headed to my brother and fiancé’s couple shower in Baton Rouge with family and friends where we will laugh the night away as the engaged couple plays our traditional Musso Newly Wed Game!  After the game my Paw Paw will give a speech to his Grandson and soon to be new Grandaughter, still by far my favorite part of the night!  So as we welcome; Renee, a new member into our family we still hold strong to our family traditions which is what at the end of the day is what makes us so unique!  My Paw Paw Great always welcomed anyone that could handle the noise and chaos to join our family events, and as he told me when I said yes to Brent’s proposal... “Only the true loves last Lil Wong and anyone who agrees to this family is true!”  Now yes he told me that with a couple slang curse words in between but I will leave that to the imagination lol.  But I got the point,  not everyone may be like us or agree with us but everyone has a damn good time when they are around us!  So cheers to my baby brother gaining a partner and for us gaining a daughter in law, sister in law and an Aunt!  

Love These Moments

After a longggggggg week I need these little moments with my babies!  We have read to all of our kids since the day they were conceived and I believe with all my heart that is why they still love books!  And I will never tell them they are to old to sit on Mommy’s lap for story time!!!!

Nothing Beats Your First Rose From Daddy

Today Leighton was accepted into big girl school and I don’t know if she truly comprehends how big this is!  This Mommy is past the point of emotions and is completely incapable of writing a blog tonight with all the emotions I have had today!  This is all due to the fact that today felt like one of the longest days ever!  So I will leave you with a couple of sweet pictures and promise to update our events of today in tomorrow’s blog.  By then I’m praying my brain is out of the mush state it is now lol!!!!  But like I said in the first line I don’t think Leighton knows the magnitude of what has happened today, but I do know she will always remember this night because it is the first night her Daddy gave her a rose; a single pink rose, that she did not have to share with Mommy!!

Asking Bubba To Be With us Tomorrow

Tomorrow is a big day for us!  We know God and our sweet Braxton will protect us in which ever way we head.  But like normal I always tend to worry even when things are well beyond my control.  Today I got a picture from my Mom saying she made a special visit to her lil man to ask him to remind Mommy that God has a plan for us always!  The moment I clicked on my text messages and saw this pic my eyes instantly filled with tears.  I took a deep breath and immediately felt better.  There are so many things in life that I forget to hand over to God.  Of all people you would think me; an Angel Mom, should know by now that I am not in control.  I wish daily that things could be different when it comes to my sweet Braxton, but I am also thankful every single day for the special blessing Braxton is to my family.  He is the last thing I see in my prayers every single night before I close my eyes and he is the first thing I think of as my eyes open each morning.  I selfishly hope his sweet cry will be what wakes me for just one morning, but I know that will not happen.  So that is where the pain and heartache creeps in and I ask him for his strength.  Because with even an ounce of his strength I can conquer the world.  But tomorrow as we wait for the calls to learn where his siblings will go to learn and grow in their Catholic Education I am begging him for more than strength I am asking him for acceptance.  For me, their Mommy, to accept with an open heart Gods plan for his sister and brother as we begin a new chapter of our journey.  A journey I know our Braxton is guiding every step of the way!